Homesickness: It will go away

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Traveling is awesome! Whether you’re just taking a day trip in a town next to yours, or you’re trekking across Europe, it’s an amazing feeling.
While with my friends I didn’t feel too homesick. There were moments of wishing I could take a break at home, but for the most part I didn’t have time to think about it.
Then I was alone. I’m sure even if you travel with friends you’re bound to get homesick.
Confession: I have horrible anxiety. My brain goes into over-drive and people always tell me that I ‘think too much’ and my heart races and I become overwhelmed. Experiencing this, alone, in a foreign country, is horrible!
My first two nights alone I cried. Not just a little, but a lot!
You will get homesick. It’s a horrible feeling. I called my mom and my best-friend during these moments and they did their best to console me, but sometimes you just want to be home. My first night in Paris I literally started to think of how I was going to get myself home in the next couple days–forfeiting all the money I had already spent.
You will feel this way: especially if you are alone.
The bad news: it really is one of the worst feelings ever!
The good news: it goes away.
For me, these feelings are the worst at night, when I’m alone and there is nothing to do to distract my thoughts (beyond French television).
My mom gave me great advice that I am now going to pass along. It’s common sense but sometimes you just need another voice of reason.
Breathe.
If traveling alone were always simple more people would do it. Traveling with friends is also difficult. But, the good will always outweigh the bad.
Breathe.
A situation always feels the worst at night when there is nothing you can do but sleep. But that’s the point: just sleep. When you’re traveling you sometimes forget to take care of yourself. You probably need rest.
Breathe.
Sleep.
I didn’t have a hostel in Paris so I had to pay 90 euro for my first night in a shady hotel-I was worried about not having a place to stay the next few nights. After a 20 minute self-pity party I took a deep breath, got on the Internet, and found a hostel. Next, I looked up times for trains to Madrid, where I already had a hostel booked.
Breathe.
Then I took a walk.
When you feel overwhelmed, put the situation in perspective. Yes, you’re alone. Yes, you’re not entirely sure what your plans are. Yes, you might be paying too much for this hotel. But, yes, you are in Europe!
”I’m in Paris! I am exactly where I wanted to be”. You have choices: sit in your room and sulk, looking at stained walls in a cramped hotel room OR get outside and experience a different culture!
I needed some comfort so I went for some Sushi (it’s my comfort food) and then walked along a busy side-street. The restaurants were packed–it was a Friday night and people were out enjoying the gorgeous weather.
I went and bought myself some wine (2.5 euro bottle!) and a bar of chocolate. I needed some comfort.
Then, because I didn’t want to be alone at night on Paris streets, I went back to my hotel room, poured myself a glass of wine, ate some chocolate and turned on Air Bud 5 — en francais.
Breathe.
Within 45 minutes I was asleep. I kept the tv on in the background as noise to distract my mind and I had one of the best sleeps yet.
I woke up, took a deep breath, and went to my hostel.
I was homesick. I was alone. I was overwhelmed. I remained alone all day.
But, it gets better. I made friends, and I had an awesome night drinking wine in front of the Eiffel tower learning French, Portuguese and Spanish.
Take a deep breath.
It will get better. I promise.
Just remember: breathe.

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4 thoughts on “Homesickness: It will go away

  1. hey baby girl, sing a chorus of YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE and remember that you have a gaurding angel with you at all time. Love u and admire what u are doing.
    Nana Pat.

    • Hi Pat!
      I am so happy that you’re reading about my travels 🙂
      And yes, next time I feel homesick (I’m sure I will at some point), I will sing.
      Love you lots!

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