I had always intended to write a one-year-anniversary post, but the day (March 6) has come and gone and still I haven’t posted anything! Shame on me! It’s been ONE YEAR since I booked my flight to Dublin, Ireland. When … Continue reading
Wow, it’s been a crazy week.
I’ve had the urge to move back to Ontario for a while (ahem, over a year!), but the ‘right opportunity’ never presented itself.
But, despite having a well-paying job, a hand-full of wonderful friends, and a house I adore, I just couldn’t seem to rid myself of the anxious feeling that I needed to leave.
So, I finally decided to take a leap, and force myself to move back to Ontario (and yes, I do this type of impulse decision making a lot).
So, I am conquering a few things on my Day Zero Project List.
62) Finish reading the Flavia de Luce series
70) Move back to Ontario
72) Write a letter to myself to open when the 1001 days are over
First, I finished reading the second book in the Flavia de Luce Series: The Weed that String’s the Hangman’s Bag.
Verdict: AMAZING! I am now beginning the third book and I can barely contain my excitement! Alan Bradley, you are a genius!
Write a Letter to your Future Self
I decided that it was time to write a letter to myself to open when the 1001 days were finished; to see a) if I finished the items on my list and b) so that I could look back and realize that everything really does work-out.
But, with all the moving I have to do, and because no matter how hard I try I’m not super organized, I went onto Google to see if anyone had come up with a way to write future e-mails to yourself.
Of course someone has! futureme.org allows you to write a letter, and have it sent to an e-mail of your choice on a specific date!
I’ve always been really uneasy about sharing my passions with others. Well, I don’t know about always, but since graduating elementary school I’ve definitely been more conservative (and humble) when it comes to sharing what I love.
I don’t know why I ever became concerned with what others thought of me. But, I am sure that I am not the only one that finds herself holding back in fear of what others may think.
I dated my ex for 6 months (and was friends with him for a brief time before) and never once shared any of my writing with him. I LOVE TO WRITE —
I’m not saying I’m talented (tsk tsk – negative self-talk) I enjoy writing, and people that care for me will not judge me for doing something that brings me joy. Why is this so hard to comprehend? (GB you best be reading this!)
How many of you enjoy playing an instrument but refuse to play it for friends/lovers out of fear? What are you afraid of?
How many of you write a blog that you have yet to share with a handful of people in your life? What are you afraid of?
How many of you enjoy singing (enjoy, not stellar at) and refuse to do it around a new b/f or g/f? What are you afraid of?
I am also afraid.
So, I am trying to change this horrible habit. I am slowly attempting to share what I love with others. So, to break the ice I am going to write a list of 10 things about me. These are 10 fears, things and activities that I enjoy, but do not necessarily do because of a) a fear of being laughed at or b) because at a young age someone criticized me and I never recovered.
This is me
- I love to write. I write in a journal on a regular basis, I write in this blog, and I dream of one day making a living by writing.
- I love to sing. In the car, home-alone in the shower, & karaoke at a seedy bar.
- I love to play the violin.
- I love photography.
- I love to draw/paint even though I don’t even like what I create half-the-time, it relaxes me.
- I am deeply petrified by death, to the point that full-on anxiety attacks are directly around the corner.
- I love dinosaurs. I love Jurassic Park (1 ,2 & 3), The Land Before Time (first only), and the Royal Tyrrell Museum.
- I pride myself on my unwavering loyalty to those I love.
- I am petrified of flying (see #6), but refuse to let this stop me because I LOVE THE THOUGHT OF TRAVELING.
- I am afraid of publishing this post because of what others may think. Petrified. To the point of not publishing it.
Maybe you’re not ready to share everything with everyone BUT you should stop living in fear and take a positive step forward by sharing one thing with someone. Start by sharing a similar list on your blog for complete strangers to read. Or, start by sharing the list (or one thing from your list) as a reply to this post. Worry and fear really are ridiculous emotions because they are based in nothing but self-doubt.
Tell me ONE THING about yourself–anything. I promise I (and no one else) will judge.